I’m not ready. I wanted to have it all together by thirty. You know, the house, my dream car and a husband on my arms. I wanted to be super fit and working the career I have always dreamed about.

The truth is, I do not have any of those things and I will be thirty in 5 months. At the beginning of this year, I felt so much anxiety. I wanted to hurry up and see how many things I can get accomplished from my list. I started looking at cars, got a personal trainer and re- opened the marriage conversations with my boyfriend. Oh yea, and I decided to go to grad school (smh).

Now these things aren’t wrong, but I had the wrong attitude about it. I came to realize that these outside sources will not make me happy if I do not want to be happy on my own. Over the last few months I have scaled back and really took into consideration how I feel about where I am in life and why do I have those feelings. Over and over again it was revealed to me that I put a heavier value on what others believe than what I believe. Society says that I should be at a certain place in life at a certain time and this is the “pace” I should be achieving goals.

“There isn’t an exact path to take, just take control of YOUR path, YOUR life and live it intentionally! “

Well, that is not me. I looked over the past few years and I must say that
I am proud of my accomplishments. I am thankful for the experiences that I have had and the people that I have met. There are so many things about life that are NOT permanent. If you gained wait… take the time to lose it. If you cut your hair and you hate it… put a weave in. Apply for the job you want, put that color in your hair, go out and eat alone. There isn’t an exact path to take, just take control of YOUR path, YOUR life and live it intentionally!

I’m excited about who I will be in five months, but that is not my full focus. I’m taking advantage of the present moments that I have. Remember to enjoy the micro moments.

From me,

Chrissy